Secrete Blog?!?
So yesterday I was trying all day long to enter a new post but I would get busy and forget or get kicked off and all was lost.. LOLmy mother in law found out that her father has colon cancer... They admitted him right away to the hospital so it doesn't sound good at all. We have been trying to call her to find out what hospital he is in and where we need to go but she has been up there with him, with no phone. We have no details of this what so ever and it has me worried to death that it has already spread to his liver and that he wont make it. He is 80 something years old so he has had a long life but he is still LIVING... He still gets around on his own and is as healthy as an 80 year can be. You wouldn't think that he was anywhere near 90 with the way he is... :( it's sooo SAD! Mark seems to be fine about it. IM not sure that he is very close with his grandparents on either side but he is more worried about his mom than anything.
My dad is going RIGHT NOW actually to the Dr. To have his colon checked for cancer. :( I hope everything turns out OK... This colon cancer thing, seems to be spreading like the PLAGUE! My uncle Howie died last year from it, robyns mom has it, papa Goeing has it, and now my dad COULD be on the list. How come "back in the day" no one was dying from cancer and now people are getting it right and left???? I guess from dying from the flu or a sinus infection people wasn't makin it that long huh? hmm... It's STILL SUCKS! Cancer is the flippin DEVIL!
ok ok enough of that, it's making me sad.
LOL so up until now my blog had been a secrete place... No one knew about it, cept me! So I was free to speak my mind and let OUT what I really feel! But I have been FOUND, and honestly I don't know FOR SURE that I have been found but I have a good idea that I have because my best friend now has a blog on blogger and when I comment to her blog she will be able to click on my name and see the blog that I have... :( I mean it's not a super BAD thing but I feel conscious about what I write on here since someone that I talk to regularly has the potential to read it... She hasn't said anythign to me about it yet and I haven't said anything to HER about it... But there is that potential... OH and my SISTER knows about it... LOL she was like, is there anything bad in there about me? I showed it to her and she was like... Oh, that's not bad! LOL is a secrete blog bad? I mean it's pretty much like an online journal for me and if I don't have that outlet what do I do? I don't keep one at home cause THERE I don't have time to write about my day, I just want to FORGET it, by the time I get to sit on my couch I have pretty much forgotten it anyway.
this blog is already different then the one I use to keep because I don't have anyone that reads it other than me... You can tell by the number comments left, and even if there is someone out there that is just reading and not leaving comments.... THEY DON'T KNOW ME! And if I called them a lazy bastard for not commenting to my blog they MAY get upset, but I wouldn't have any emotion toward it cause it's not someone CLOSE to me. ;) LOL there are things that I am able to say to my non existent readers that I can't just up and say to the people that I hang with everyday, without hurting someone's feelings and then having to have this BIG ordeal about it. I don't know.. I wish there was SOMEONE who read this that could give me advise regarding this subject.
~ IS THERE ANYONE WHO READS THIS THAT CAN HELP ~ ADVISE! ~
like for instants.... I wouldn't tell my daily friends that...
we went to the lake this weekend to play with our friends jet ski or wave runner, whatever you want to call it. it was too much fun... I wish me and mark could afford one of those. :) that'd be PIMP! Our other friends have a cabin that has been in their family forever and its pretty much right on the lake. We go with them almost everytime they go, last time we were all there, they were like " you all have to come down by yourself once, it's SOOO Nice!!" so we were like yeah that'd be nice. So this weekend came and we wanted to go - figuring since they said that last time, it wouldn't be a problem to go and hang out there without them. We asked if we could go down and use it cause we were gonna play on the water MOSTLY but we just wanted a place that we could chill for a minute when we got tired... And they say that, they don't want anyone there without them. Um.. WTF!?!!!? Ok whatever so we were just like ok we'll go to taylorsville lake instead. Well she called back and was like he has to work but if you want to come pick me up, I'll go with you. So it was like we had to have a babysitter or something before we could go somewhere that we go all the time.... kinda makes me feel like - ok are you jealous that we were going? Or do you not trust us or what? I don't know, all I know is that made me feel pretty shitty!
it's like me and mark have known this girl for 17 years pretty much grew up with her, when she wasn't running away! And all of the sudden WE aren't good enough to go to the cabin WITHOUT supervision. WHATEVER!
but for the 4th of July weekend we have planned for all of us to go there... Going down Friday and staying the night and then coming back Saturday night... I don't know if I even want to go.... Apparently IM not TRUSTED! I mean if they were just some people that we hung out with everynow and again, I could understand their not wanting us to use it by ourselves... But we are like family ( or so I thought) but then again I have some family that I wouldn't trust in my house by themselves.... LOL so I guess it's WHATEVER. I'll just keep my mouth shut about it, cause that's what the blog does, helps get it out - ;)
luvs ~A.
posted by ~Manda @ 11:58 AM
3Whatcha Think:
hello!
oh, i totally know what you mean about trying to keep this blog to yourself. i would cringe if someone i knew actually read mine. the blog is like a sliver of my inner-most thoughts. it doesn't phase me that people i don't know read it but if my friends read it and knew what i was thinking..i think i'd be pretty embarassed. *especially my whole sob story about my ex. a blog is much like a diary to me, i guess. i prefer typing over handwriting lol.
anyhow, regarding your friend it sounds like she either doesn't trust you or she doesn't want her privacy invaded. i don't think she'd be jealous that you're going to her cabin..since it is her's already and she has access to it whenever she wants. its a little silly that they offered their cabin to you but then went back on their word.
um, I never heard about any of this, but then again, I haven't heard about a lot lately. Deenas just like that, we all know this, and we've all learned to accept it for some reason. I wouldn't trust your punk ass in my house either, prolly eat all my friggin macaroni!
you KNOW i would too! :) hee hee LOVE SOME MAC N CHEESE... :D
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