~Manda's Thoughts~

Someone SMACK me with religion!

i dont know how anyone else feels but i need religion. i don't feel WHOLE without it...but i don't believe that the catholic religion which i grew up in, is right for ME. i have been looking into buddhist religion and it sounds a whole lot like how i have been living ANYWAY! i feel like it's more of a "way of life" rather than a religion and i could go into it like that as... A WAY OF LIFE! i don't know about the "religion" because the ONE thing that i just don't think that i can let myself do in the buddhist religion is NOT believe in GOD or not necessarily GOD but just a higher being. i don't know if that makes sense or not but it does to me... lol
anyway i was tellin mark about my dilema and he said that it didn't matter what i did and to do whatever makes me happy. well i don't know that much about other religions cause like i said before i was brought up CATHOLIC and i went to beliefnet.com and took their little religion pole and they match you up with what religion most closely fits your beliefs... imagine that! 100% matching with the buddhist religion. so ever since then i have been lookin into it. So what i need is all you "enlightened" ones to help me out! :) hee hee
well work is waiting for me so i must cut this short! :)
A~

posted by ~Manda @ 2:37 PM 25 comments

Consolidated life!

whew... life changing events happening all around me!!! where to start...

my best friend is leaving louisville, we will be pen pals once again. we have had so many points in our lifes where we just couldn't be together and "hang out" so we became pen pals and kept our friendship strong. whether is was me being grounded for the summer or for life... or her moving to arkansas we always found a way to keep in touch. the good thing about her move is that it's not far away - in comparison to arkansas! once they get settled and get a place of their own, i wouldn't see why we couldn't be down there to visit. i mean it's not gonna be like her being only 15-20 mins away but we'll figure it out.
robyn: you don't have to worry about ANYONE replacing you.. you are my best friend and SISTER! nothing in the WORLD could change that! ;)
what really bugs me is that im not gonna be able to see mik that much, but im sure when robyn is visiting grandma and her mom she'll try to come by... maybe. (SHE BETTER)
im just afraid that im gonna see mik the next time and seh is gonna be 3.5 foot tall... or the time after that she'll be 4 ft tall and then the next time i see her she'll be 5 ft. tall and then she'll be GROWN! lol over dramatic, i know. but they grow so fast and she is a special part of my life and i don't want to loose the closeness that i have with her. :( but all that aside, i truely am happy for robyn because i know that this is what she has always wanted to do. and deep down - i always knew that she would leave again! but i think that her going to school to be a vet tech. and being in mt. sterling will be a great thing she should be able to find something she loves to do. so that's enough of that subject... hee hee ;)

marks mom is AWWWESOME! lol she called him about 2 days ago and was talkin about marks debt. mark has several credit cards and most of them don't really have a high balance or anything but the TOTAL of all of them and the payments that are coming in from them and him not really having the money for all of em has gotten him DOWN! so his mom told him that she would take all of his credit cards and consolidate them on their card with high credit limit and a low apr. HOW AWESOME IS THAT? so now all he has to do is pay his mom a certain amount every month! i was thinking, i wonder if pat would do that for me? pat has great credit and can get access to a good card witha good rate, but WOULD he? lol i dunno - i wouldn't ASK but i think with my little balance that i have it would HELP a tremendous amount, but i have a hard enough time askin for MONEY let alone, credit card! lol mom said over the weekend that i have gotten really good at "workin" pat for money! lol she is funny cause we were talking about how us kids are pretty spoiled... and of course we ARE but im not spoiled "money wise" like the other two are, LINZY especially! she is walking around witha purse that cost $150.00!!!! you know how much mine was? $5.00!!! yep dollar store purse that had a pink A on it. so i had to get it! OH but i did just get a new one... but it was only $22.00, still no contest huh? hee hee ;) so we figured out that i am more spoiled "attention wise" than with money. but that is cause i grew up with a mom that was my age now and tryin to go to college and working 2 jobs to try to support us AND trying to find a man! lol i don't know that for sure but i know if i had a kid right now and no baby daddy around.. i'd be on the hunt! hee hee
but i guess your suppose to spoil your kids and give them what they want... to a certain degree. but im no mother... speakin of kids..... i have a secrete that im not pose to tell hee hee and i can usually keep a secrete pretty well but im just so excited for this person cause of the secrete that i had to blog about "the secrete"... and it's very life changing but i can't tell, cause this certain someone told me that they wanted it to be kept a secrete until they were ready to tell! lol you all are prolly thinking.. WTF!?!!? heehee sorry... this is the only way that i could TELL about it... and GET IT OUT without actually telling. whew, i feel better now... if that certain someone reads this blog - DONT worry... no body knows anything. :) hee hee
and robyn dont' be buggin me about the SECRETE cause i can't tell ya! :) lol sorry... no hints so don't ask... (i know you, your gonna bug the piss outta me) well at least everyone else knows that it's not about robyn! HEE HEE ;)

So sunday afternoon my mommy went to the hospital with chest pains. :( i think she is stressed cause all of her test came back ok - nothing wrong with her but they wanted to keep her overnight because of our family history of heart problems. so my mother had to stay in the hospital all by herself and i didn't even know about it. :( i found out MONDAY morning when i talked to pat and he was like we tried to get ahold of you but there was only one missed call on my phone so i don't know where they were calling if they were tryin so hard to get ahold of me. i didnt get the message till 10pm and usually mom is already in bed by then so i didn't call back - all she said was "it's your momma call when you get this"... so i didn't think OH EMERGANCY i neeed to call now or anythign cause she didn't say anything about it. but i have promised myself that if/when this happens again (hopefully not for a long time) that my mother will not stay in the hospital by herself again... she kept saying not to worry about it that she is fine and all that. but i keep thinking to myself WHAT IF SHE WASNT ok or i know that if i was the one in the hospital i wouldn't want to stay all by myself! :( anyway i think she is ok now though...

well everybody and their MOM is calling right now... dunno what it is about it 330 or 4 o'clock but seems like everyone knows that it's time for me to stop working and they start callin in.. UGH! i have had like 7 calls in the past 30 mins... GO AWAY PEOPLE!!!!!!! screw your GRASS!!! lol i wish i could say that. :) *evil grins*
welp better go.....
A~

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more fishy lips and HOLD EM!

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Josh n Deena on the river 

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hunter 

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mark 

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lol she was scared she was gonna get wet... tee hee.... i think she DID! 

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Josh - it's like the "matrix" 

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Hunter - can you see the water that he is pointing in my direction... lil shit! 

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sunset 

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sunset 

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sunset 

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~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIL SIS ~

We had her party wednesday because that was the day she was with her dad and that's the day that we get to celebrate when it's her mom's weekend... CONFUSSING i know.. but it's ok... none of that really matters anyway! :)
So following with our normal traditions mom always cooks us "our FAV" dinners on our bdays linzys is MEATLOAF (and not the BAND) hee hee...
lol mine is MAC & CHEESE... but we AGREE on MASHED POTATOS!!! hee hee YUM! :)
I was in charge of getting the cake so i had to make it something that she would LOVE :) so when i called the bakery i was like look, i need it to be PINK and as GURLY as possible! tee hee so she put pink and light purple roses and the letters and border was pink with purple sprinkles. AWW too cute, and to add a bit of FLASH, i bought some GLITTER candles.. YAY! pink, white and purple.. with silver glitter on them... SO GIRLY it'll make you want to PUKE! :)
So we ate our dinner and had CAKE and then mom brings out the ice cream... cept it's NOT EDIBLE... it's CRAP! lol J/K it's just STAR BUCKS and coffee flavor.. so im like well i'll just ahve cake, thank you! lol they were all about this ice cream (i was sick but they are drooling just from the smell of it)
After we got good and fat, i announced that if the parents didn't have a problem with it, linzy could drive my car over in the parking lot of the school that's right across the street from their house. OH YEA! :)
So she drives my car for about a half hour... it was fun and she did pretty good to! GO LINZY ITS YA BURFDAY. :P
So this post is mainly for her to tell her:

I was her age when my mom met and started dating her dad she was like 3 at the time and too freaking CUTE and she was nice at first, but when i started living there with them, i dont think she liked that too much cause seh started to be MEAN to me... and of course im pubescent, so im mean back. just about every chance she got, she would start shit.. fortunatly for me, she wasn't around much cause she was spending most of her time with her mom and the weekends that she was there, i would try to spend the night with someone.. (ROBYN) :) Prior to linzy i was an only child and just as all normal, ONLY children do, i dreamed of having a sister... how much fun would it have been to grow up with another child? I'll never know! i ddin't get siblings until i was half way grown up or at least thought i was. So i made my own sister, if mom wasn't going to give me one, then i made robyn my sister. Me and robyn met when we were 9 years old so she was the closest thing to "growing up" with someone as i could get and to this day she is still my sister! but mine and linzys parents FORCED us to be sisters and in the beginning it wasn't pretty... but somehow, someway.....WE BECAME WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED... granted i have to be a little more childish and silly when we hang out but it's still just as i always thought it would be like. Giggling, hanging out, talking, telling secretes and having our own little "code" language... it's just like me and robyn were, cept im 11 years older than her and i can actually teach her a little about the "real world" i didn't have anyone older that i hung out with but i made it ok. :) hee hee i think so anyway.
ANYWAY i better go cause i haven't done a lick of work all day so have a great bday linzy and i love you! ;)
A~

posted by ~Manda @ 2:50 PM 10 comments

Dinner is served: Meatloaf, mashed potatos, mac and cheese and buttered french bread! YUM 

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~Happy Birthday Too YOU~ 

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This was my card that i got her... it was cute...something about sometimes we laughed, we hit, we cried, we blah blah blah... and somewhere along the way, we became best friends.. :) then i put in it: I love you and want you to know that i always wanted a sister just like you, no matter what happens we'll always have each other... AWWW ;) 

posted by ~Manda @ 1:58 PM 0 comments

check out her new digs... :) South Pole shirt and jeans...too cute... says south pole on the butt of the jeans... and they are prolly a size i could "squeeze" my fat ass in! hee hee ;) 

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what is the deal with KIDS and Star Bucks these days? We had STAR BUCKS "fresh roasted ICE CREAM" for her bday party.... how freaky is that... COFFEE tasting ice cream... BLEH! ;) see you know they HAVE to put some kind of CRACK in there for everyone to be all flipped out of that CRAP! anywho.. .too each their own ~ i just passed on the ice cream part of BDAY CAKE / ICE CREAM 

posted by ~Manda @ 1:52 PM 0 comments

SICK KIDS SMOKE clog my head!

Whelp, it’s only Tuesday and I’m sick and I don’t want to be here and I can’t leave early cause I can’t afford to take a day off and i’m tired and I have a fever and you want to hear anymore bitchin? Lol sorry ;)
So the weekend was pretty good, went out to the bars with deena josh, Tim and jasmine we tried to go to our normal spot, BAR & Have a nice day café. But when we got there they WERE CLOSED!!!!!!! AHHHHH CLOSED!??!?!?!? Yes… CLOSED!! Damn it… that place use to be poppin… I mean PACKED to the gills…. Asses and elbows everywhere! But NO MORE!
Lol so we left there and went to Jillian’s and tried to go to their little dance club they had…
me to the dude at the register: does atlas have a cover?
Dude: nope, there is no more atlas.
Me: NO MORE ATLAS?
Dude: nope, it’s closed down…
So I look at my peeps and i’m like uh.. now what, so we sat at the bar and had a drink.. by that I mean EVERYONE else had a drink. I did ask for a Pepsi and the bar tender let me have it for free though, that was nice! Yay for that! We have determined that “4th street live” has taken over the club scene! Not sure if I like that or not but i’m getting too old to be clubbin anyway so I guess it doesn’t matter much. Love shakin da ass…but its just not that much fun anymore.
So we stayed there for a bit then went to wicks pizza and the two little bars that are attached to it… bought a pizza, got SUPER full then josh and deena bought a pizza and tried to make me even more FAT! Lol I wasn’t havin it though. So we stayed there for a bit then we walked down to akikos which is a nifty little bar with karaoke but it’s not your “tear in your beer, my girl left me and took my doggie” country karaoke.. Its all kinds of music… we had fun there. Jas sang eat the rich, she played the air guitar and everything. :lol I played darts with mark and we also played pool…would have been teams me and mark against dee and josh but something happened and josh told deena, your not playing and she flipped out on him… lol so I don’t know what happened, even though I was standing right there…. I try to stay out of their messes. ;)
so anyway it was just the three of us… hee hee on one of joshs turns I set him up pretty badly.. like the cue ball was all up in the middle of some CRAP… so im like BREAK THAT SHIT UP! And he was like aight….being the little smart-ass that his is and hit the cue ball all hard.. hee hee, skip to next scene - there went the 8 ball in the middle pocket HA HA HA GAME BITCHES!! tee hee :P after the games got boring we went up the stairs to the karaoke…there was a bachelor party and a birthday going on. So it was pretty wild. Seems like everyone that goes there are like regulars but that kinda happens at every karaoke bar you go to, or at least that I have gone to
It was kinda like kings club that me and robyn use to go to… where they have an area where you can dance and it’s not ALL country… cept for better, well at least a better set up. Hee hee there was a guy there that sang that song called “meet Virginia” cept he was saying MEET VAGINA! LOL lol we were crackin up.. too much fun.
It was SOOO freaking smoky in there though, my eye ball was crying and I couldn’t control it, it was soo bad that I had to go outside like 3 different times to stop crying! LOL I was just so moved by the music and all…hee hee j/k
Naw, for real I think that was the start of me getting sick.. I hate being sick!
My eye was crying and stinging the next morning too so it was prolly a combo of the both, sick n smoke. Saturday I was fine but the next day my throat was sore and yesterday it was pretty sore but today I don’t have a sore throat that much but more CONGESTION! I hate not being able to breathe.
Oh yea, Saturday we went to see the exorcism of Emily rose… pretty good. But the DAMN kids up there were AwFUL! Talking and standing up in the isles and getting up and down.
I mean soo bad that before the movie even started this security lady was walking around telling everyone to shut up and sit down… lol I felt like I was in school again… she said YOU WILL NOT GET YOUR MONEY BACK IF YOUR ARE TALKING AND I THROW YOU OUT OF THIS THEATRE!
Lol of course all of us old people had to applaud the fact that this lady wasn’t takin no shit! LOL and YOU KNOW that Robyn and me had to do SOMETHING about it…. So we were making fun of them… MUAHHHHAHAHAHA! *Evil grins*
I even had to give some evil LOOKS while there to make the little girl next to mark shut the F up! Oh and I threw out… a “SHHHHHHH” with all my force! Lol Robyn looked at me like I was a dork but I did it half way thinking that one of the little shit heads would let out a “IT” right after. hee hee I remember doing that in school when the teacher would get pissed that there was too much talking going on…. Bad bad bad it was all in good fun, they are lucky that I didn’t have to pay for that movie or I would have been PISSED for real and complained… it’s too much damn money to go and have to deal with a bunch of kids having a social gathering… Linzy was all like… but it’s soo fun! I’m like if your not going to watch the damn movie why spend 7.50 to go to sit and talk… go SKATING or something that ALLOWS talking. DUH! Kids today are “special” lol
Did you know that I coach a team full of 7th and 8th graders and NONE of them can tell time, unless it’s digital??? I asked linzy and the other coach about it and was like have you ever seen a bunch of 8th graders that can’t read a clock? She said that she brought that to the teachers attention and the teacher wasn’t concerned with it cause everything is digital now… i'm like WTF!!?!??!?! That’s MESSED up! It’s no wonder the children of today are lazy, all they do is talk on their cell phones and play on the computer and play video games and watch TV…. No body ever plays outside anymore… me Robyn deena and mark… along with A LOT OF OTHERS use to run around our neighborhood and terrorize everything… LOL I mean riding bikes and climbing trees and catching the woods on fire. Er, eh, I mean… walking through the woods together….just like that one commercial on the radio says, we would WALK to someone’s house to see if they wanted to go WALKING! Lol kids don’t do that today they IM each other to see what’s up they, talk on their cell phones and go to the damn movies to TALK! LOL Another thing that’s retarded is spending $80.00 on a freaking Hollister skirt that doesn’t look any different from one that came from target or something…. I don’t know – all I know is when I was linzys age I didn’t FOLLOW the “group” of cool people I was just my self, and I didn’t wear NAME brand clothes…or even “CUTE” clothes, I wore t-shirts and jeans or whatever was clean I got by all 4 years of high school like that and I was Homecoming Queen my senior year… so how does that work, someone who didn’t even go out of my way to be popular… and I was. I mean there are like a total of 50 kids at linzys school so everyone knows everyone… they have to! LOL Whatever… I have medicine head right now… ramblings… I don’t know what im talking about, I just need a NAP!!!!! :) lol
A~

posted by ~Manda @ 3:09 PM 7 comments

Labor Day

us at the river
So since robyn decided to be a BUTT and steal all my pics.. :( i don't have any to post cept the ones of me and mark but let it be known...
ALL OF THOSE PICS AT THE PARK ON Robyns BLog ARE MINE!!!!!!! lol jerk.
hee hee i was being an ass in the few pics before this one.. :) heh heh
mark gets sick of me takin pics of him (imagine that) i took this one of us together and then the one with the sun shining on him and then he was liek STOP TAKIN pics of me! lol and i was like ok... about 5 mins later he was standing there and i was just getting ready to take his pic without him knowing and he turned around and looked at me real quick and i was BUSTED!!!! so he yelled at me of course and i walked away from him and then i seen that he was lookin around for me so i took his pic and then he seen me.... then i was hiding around the bushes with the camera pointed at him and he seen me and started busting out laughin... LOL
i love that i have my old "playful" mark back. i mean he isn't the COMPLETE same after all that stuff with pat... but it's good to get a glimps of how we used to be and know that we can still do that..
this may make no sense to people who don't know me personally but for the people who do.. YOU KNOW WHAT IM TALKIN BOUT! ;0)
Well just wanted to share those pics with you, i have just been informed that im going home early today so i must go to get some last minute things done before hand.. :)
LUVS and have a good weekend. :P
A~

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my sexi~ 

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Ohio River 

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More park pics to come, just don't have enough time to play and work at the same time right now.. :)  

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mik and robyn 

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Selfish HOTTIE Ramblings

Those poor people!!! :( it's soo sad to see the devistation that has happend from Katrina... i wish that i had something to offer.. or could help in someway...
i just got an email that had a pic of a BP gas station sign that said 589 per gallon for unleaded, mid grade was 599 and premium was 609!!!!!!! that is MESSED uP.. if it comes to that... i swear im not going to DRIVE! me and mark will be car pooling and whatever else you can do to get around driving.. me and robyn were talking about buying a horse... lol i'd have to get mark a BIG one to carry is ass and then it'd have to be a FAST one...cause you can't have a slow car, i mean horse! oh and then we'd have to make sure he had gold or platnium shoes.. cause the wheel BLING IS important... but how do you put a bumpin system on a HORSE! lol that'd be funnY...
anyway - on to happier news... I WON the office hottie contest! THANK YOU - THANK YOU... i get a FREE LUNCH and for all those peoples that know me personally...
THAT IS THE BEST GIFT/PRIZE A PERSON LIKE ME COULD GET! :)
lol its funny, because i have already been told that some people are actually jealous! LOL ha ha ha that's just funny... like deena said..A CONTEST doesn't constitute whether im HOTT or NOT! i know im a cutie... but i don't just walk around thinking.. yep im HOT... your not... lol good looks doesn't make me better than anyone else.. im SCREWED up just like everyone else is... lol but WHATEVER, it's a freaking radio contest.. get over it!
ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS!
So while i was at lunch today terri here decided to get MAD about something... ugh! she is such a flippin DRAMA QUEEN! i HHHHAAAATE drama queens... SO she told me this morning that pat and her talked yesterday and he told her that i can start helping with the routes when she has to call 3 of them and they are big ones like yesterday (20 in each)- i can help call... so im llike ok whatever... and then pat called a min ago and was like what's up, im like oh just tryin to get caught up so that i can "HELP TERRI" or whatever if she needs it... crybaby! and he laughed at me and said well staciey is doing such and such and this and that.. meanin that she don't have to call a route for him... so she only has two to call.... uh huh... she just put a route on my desk for me to call... WTF!?!?!?!? BEEEOTCH! she drives me in-flippin-sane!!! drama drama..... and TODAY she had the NERVE to say that Don is annoying.. i mean granted... he IS with his "oh poor ME" shit.. that drives me nuts too!!! BUT she takes the fucking CAKE! im suprised im not CRAZY with the people that i work with... UGH!!!!! i guess everyone is prolly like that to some point... but since this is a family business we are "close" HA thats funny sounding.. WHATEVER!!!! so anyway now im sitting here at 220 with all this shit to do... bitch is cutting into my ONLINE time! lol im soo SELFISH! ;) oh this just in... from my daily buddhist wisdom:

We also often add to our pain and suffering by being overly sensitive,
over-reacting to minor things, and sometimes taking things too personally.

how TRUE is that!?!?!?!??

So i live by an elementry school in my neighborhood and every month they have "the word of the month" on their signature board... this months is dedication, i was thinking on my way home to eat TUNA for lunch... am i dedicated to anything.. LOL so i look up the word, i basically knew what it meant but i wanted to see what the ACTUAL meaning was... this is what i got:

ded·i·ca·tion n.
1. The act of
dedicating or the state of being dedicated.
2. A note prefixed to a literary,
artistic, or musical composition dedicating it to someone in token of affection
or esteem.
3. A rite or ceremony of dedicating.
4. Selfless devotion:
served the public with dedication and integrity

ok for one, i didn't think you were suppose to define and word with the word!!???! lol what's up with that.. or am i just old school?
anyway so i take #4's meaning because thats the one i was thinking when i seen the word... applied that to my life.. or really to SEE if it is applied to my life.. and im sorry to say, bt i don't think i am "selfless" in any way shape or form... i mean devotion to mark, yes... devotion to my family , yes.... but further than that.. NO! does that count? husband and family? i would think that in some form, everyone is devoted to their family.... im not devoted to a religion because i don't believe in my religion... im not devoted to my job, i mean maybe i AM cause im Devoted to the money... HA that's it... MONEY! i am dedicated to my money! LOL
So what is ONE thing OUTSIDE of family that your Devoted or Dedicated to?
for me, it's money...lol that's pretty selfish! :)
welp, gotta go make da money.....
luvs
A~

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