Nothing in Common?
So i come back from a great vacation and my house is fine (no break ins) and my cat is fine, thanks to robyn. She came and visited him while we were gone. :) thanksthe first couple of days back were good... i was actually happy to be home cause we were gone so long. the lady i work with, will be going on vacation starting monday so i'll be all by my self at work next week, prolly wont be bloggin much because of it. too much work for just one person. prolly wont be online much period! which is just as well cause me and robyn got into it friday over the email. we emailed back and forth all day long which was just FAB! and we are sitting there argueing over something that there really isn't anything that we can do about it. she has a child with an early bed time and i have a husband with an early bed time. and usually on the weekends we are utilizing our hot ass summer weather going to the lake to the cabin to play with jet skis and stuff like that. she is usually doing something like the park or zoo with mik. but she seems to think that we make it a point not to hang out with them but it's completly NOT like that. anything that we get invited to do, they usually get invited to, but can't because of mik. people have pretty much stopped asking because we all know what the answer will be. josh and deena have a cabin that is fun to go to. anthony and christy have a jetski that is fun to play on. it just sounds like a better time for us than sitting in their basement smoking weed (which i don't do, so that's EVEN MORE fun for me) or going to the park or the hot ass zoo or something like that, that is "MIK friendly". personally the cabin COULD be mik friendly if robyn really wanted to come down. but that's a different topic altogether.
i know that she is going through a rough time right now. and i try to be there for her but it seems like whatever i say is WRONG - even when im trying to be totally honest with her, it's WRONG. well i can't be right all the time and i never knew that just being there to listen was the wrong thing to do. so it's easier to just say nothing at all, yes? NO because that's WRONG also... you know everyone has their own methods of dealing with death and health issues - i don't know what hers or anybody else's is... it's a touchy subject and i just don't know what to do in that aspect.
i really think that robyn has changed ALOT inthe past couple of years both good and bad changes and i don't know what happend because it's not just the RECENT events that have taken place for me to notice. and maybe that's the problem: we have none each other for soo long that change in the personality puts a dent or something on the friendship? i don't know it's like there is no room to grow when you have relationships from childhood... but if there is change... and the other person doesn't change... then you have NOTHING IN COMMON anymore! ah hell.. i have no clue what im talking about anymore, im tired and i have been rambling about this too long... ENOUGH.
well i guess i better go cause anthony and christy are here... i feel like im being RUDE!! :( dont want to do that!!!!
A~
Just a foot note!!
I AM THE ASSHOLE IN THIS SITUATION AND I HAVE "BLAME, BLAME, BLAMED" ROBYN FOR EVERYTHING OH AND ROBYN IS RIGHT AND IM WRONG....
happy?
posted by ~Manda @ 12:07 AM
4Whatcha Think:
Our priority's have changed. They used to be the total same, and now we both have completely different ones. And it's not a bad thing at all. It's a little difficult to deal with at first but after awhile we'll figure out ways for them to coincide.
Anytime any of us get together, we all smoke weed, but you. Cept the difference is that at Josh and Deenas house, you can just smoke it while watching tv or taking a shit or whatever because they allow it all over their house, Your alls house, we go into Marks room, most the time. But Marks room has entertainment. When we smoke cigarettes, we go on the porch, and usually almost everyone follows and it's not crowded and it's entertaining somewhat. My house, we smoke both weed and cigs in one room. Theres no tv down there, not a whole lot of room down there and noone will go outside because of Roxy, so it gets boring quickly.
It's weird because usually when it's just us at home, after Mik goes to sleep, we'll generally go smoke a bowl, and a cig each. Then we migrate to the living room and watch tv till bedtime. We dont spend much time down there.
The cabin... I don't doubt that the cabin is a blast. But, regardless of what anyone thinks, Mik is still too young to stay any amount of time and have a whole lot fo fun. Today, we set up the big pool and all got in and swam for half the day. Andy came out and got in, Josh and Deena came out and got in, Me and Mik and Sean were all in, it was great. For me, I would rather be able to do that everyday that I can. And I undertstand that not everyone wants to do that, and thats fine, something Friday just struck a cord or something I dunno.
I'm dealing with a lot of shit with mom right now too, thats true and I do appreciate that your there to listen, it's just that email is about the only way I talk to you anymore and it's not something that I can effectivly express in an email, and if your just listen than in email thats equivalent to ignoring because you can't send an email that says "listening" and it mean much. And those (((())))) hugs just aren't the same. ;)
I do however need to find someone that has advice, and this isn't belittling your shoulder at all, it's just something additional I need for this particular thing.
But anyway, your welcome for loving your rotten ass cat.
i really think that robyn has changed ALOT inthe past couple of years both good and bad changes and i don't know what happend because it's not just the RECENT events that have taken place for me to notice. and maybe that's the problem:
Robyn had a kid. That tends to change a person a whole lot. And you say this like you haven't changed at all, same old manda huh? Not hardly. Everyone changes, and if you don't then thats when you should worry. You're writing all this like Robyn just does this and does that and you odn't do anything. This is a 2 way street and no kind of resolution is going to come out of it until BOTH of us fix what's bothering each other. You can't blame everything n me and sit there like your not to blame at all just like I can't blame everything on you, and until this is realized, then this will go nowhere. I really don't feel like arguing about this anymore though. I figured it was over the other day but I guess not.
Yea thats totally what i was going for. I didn't say you blamed me for everything, I said we were both to blame.... and really I don't even know what the fuck we're argueing about anymore.
you don't sound like much of a best friend to me.
thats nice of me isn't it? I went from saying nice things about your pictures to calling you an asshole.
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